I wish my brain had an off switch.
I can't sleep. I can't help but lay awake, thinking about a story Lane and I have been working on. It's going to be published in 12 days.
It's a tragic story, but ultimately, one about hope. Though, in a meeting last week, Lane's editor summed things up by saying that this is a story about what happens when a child isn't loved. Somehow that resonates.
I want it to be done right.
I wish I was still making pictures of Dani. Still working it. I can't help but wonder if I did enough. If I've told this story fully and to the best of my ability. Wondering if the family will be happy with the results. Hoping it'll do some good, somehow.
My worst fear is that I haven't done it justice.
I'm drawn to stories like this. It's what I'm most passionate about. In a way I'm dealing with my own demons. Trying to reconcile with the past. But it's not about me.
I want it to be perfect. For Dani. After all, it's her story. Not mine.
you have done more than enough. you have poured your heart and soul into this story and your work. no one could ask you to do any more. not only are you great at what you do but you make other people by simply by doing it. realize it. believe it. never doubt it.
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btw i am glad you are back up and running
you have done more than enough. you have poured your heart and soul into this story and your work. no one could ask you to do any more. not only are you great at what you do, but you make others better by simply doing it. realize it. believe it. never doubt it.
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i just spent an hour going through all the images and reading the story, and i really admire you for not staying detached, and actually letting yourself take on the enormity of the situation. the work is stunning, and they wouldn't have given you this difficult assignment if you weren't the perfect person for the job. but you've helped to shed light on something really important, and there are a lot of pro photographers, like me, who want to applaud your work. her family is doing what they can. there is nothing more that any of us can do except vow to get involved, and to not let this happen to any child ever again.
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